Present In This Day

I would like to be present in the experience of each moment, present to what is. I say that so easily and slip from the awareness of this moment's experience so easily.

Essentially, I slip into habitual ways of interacting and being almost immediately after saying that I want to be present in the moment. It's the way I learned to survive as I developed awareness as a child. And I slip into this habitual perspective as easily as I breathe. I run thoughts in my mind which serves as a running conversation that goes on and on, deliberating, reflecting, imagining, worrying, planning and dreaming. You'd think that I would be bored by this commentary by now because it's endless and does not achieve resolution. And yet I run thoughts and deliberate all manner of things in my mind almost without noticing, I've become so adept at it.

When I meditate, I am often able to stop the running commentary and experience being present in the moment, fully aware. At those times, it seems like it would be easy to extend this experience of being into the rest of my day and I do sometimes achieve such presence during experiences in my day. It's fleeting, though. I seem to quickly slip into letting my familiar inner dialogue and commentary run, again, hardly noticing the shift.

I am currently present as I sit at my keyboard, typing these words, aware of my breathing, aware of my posture. I feel blessed and wonderful present in this moment, so I'd like to make this note of how I feel when I'm being present. I like this feeling and I enjoy being this way. Let's see how much I enjoy being present throughout this day.